[ That does actually surprise him, mostly because heβs, of course, seen demons. He quite literally lives with one. He...quite literally is - was? - related to demons.]
( there's a brief pause, a gathering of her thoughts before she adds-- )
The first demon. ( though she knows that in his world things are very different, that demons are fallen angels ) I assume that your-- guardians have told you much about angels and demons? About how the world came to be?
It isn't that it's different but what is forgotten.
( yes, some of it is different, her demons aren't fallen angels as crowley is but that's not what she's concerned with )
The world was created by the false god, that much is true. Two humans began their life in a garden, a paradise, made to live in eternity together. But this is where mortal history gets the story wrong. They would tell you the tale of Adam and Eve. But there was another before her, a woman that was cast out from the Garden for her beliefs, simple things that she desired. Her name was Lilith.
( she pauses for a moment, giving him time to digest it but not enough time to ask anything )
She wandered the wastelands for centuries until Lucifer found her, saving her where the false god has cast her out. For you see, the reason she'd survived for so long was because she wasn't mortal but a witch. The first witch.
( the tale isn't complete, not without millennia of story telling but she has one other part she needs to tell him )
[ Adam listens. For as many questions as he could probably think to ask, her tone and the whole point of their conversation are more than enough to keep him settled and quiet.
So he takes in the story. He does realize that the world and the stories about gods and demons and angels and whatever he may have absorbed in the past are true - obviously, being what he is, seeing what he has seen -, but it's still a completely different thing altogether to actively learn about them.
But she makes her point and he blinks, looking genuinely surprised. He lingers on that faintly stunned silence for a couple of seconds, but not too many. ]
So...you're the first witch. And a demon. [ Simply going over what she just told him. ]
You told me you were a witch, when we met. Why didn't you tell me your real name?
[ His gaze on her never breaks, attentive and quiet, and lacking in much expression, making him difficult to read. But that also means that heβs not showing anger or frustration in any manner, either. No, heβs simply trying to understand.
If she had been defensive, if she had strongly refuted his questions, then maybe he would have been more suspicious. Maybe he would have felt betrayed, but, no, all he feels is curiosity, and the want to understand.
He believes her intent in her reasons, whatever those might really be, in full. ]
Who? [ Trust, thatβs all. He knows heβs a kid. Most adults will never tell kids the full story.] And why couldnβt she know?
( now she doesn't even tell the truth, or at least not the entire truth. what lilith says is true even if it isn't the real reason. what happened between her and sabrina was their truth, their business and it isn't something lilith's in the habit of sharing )
Being the first witch-- it's the one history that more accurately tells the tale, my life with Lucifer, how witchkind was shaped into the Path of Night.
( but she stops herself from thinking too much on that, not wanting to veer too far from the topic )
I don't often reveal my true self. Not when a name would alter much of an interaction. But now-- now that my truth has been revealed to Sabrina it's-- perhaps less of a concern.
( at least with people she knew for now. and with only sabrina there from their world it impacted little )
[ He doesn't understand all of it, and perhaps he can't, unless Lilith takes the time to explain things that might be too complicated for a single afternoon. She's said a lot as is, and he takes the honesty in stride. That's all he wanted. That's all he expected, too, even after Crowley tried to warn him that he probably wouldn't get that.
But Adam believes her. ]
I guess that's understandable. [ He comments almost too casually. ] If you were just afraid she'd know.
[ There's something else on his mind. Not the same situation, but his own parallel none the less. ]
...there's tons of people here from a lot of different places. We don't know what they really are, most of them.
[ Like the witches she's told him about. How many people could be hiding their true natures for their own safety? ]
( she catches that pause, the carefulness of how he speaks and-- it's a funny thing. she remains gentle with him, more a guidance that he can tell her if he chooses than outright asking him. because it's his secret and he needs to be comfortable with who he tells )
Well-- some secrets need not be shared with others. They are yours, your choice of whether your share them.
( and while she didn't have to admit hers even with him asking she had for a reason -- some form of trust )
If you do share it make sure you know why you are.
[ A form of trust - that's what it meant to him, too. It was hardly too shocking, now, to hear that someone's actually a non-human creature. Two, three months can do a lot when it all happens at once. All that mattered to him was feeling like she wasn't lying. And perhaps proving a point to himself, after the exchange he had with Crowley.
And she came clean. But now, he sits there, wondering about the other side of that. About being honest. About how things hardly matter here, really, when you're entirely out of your element. He's not really ashamed; he doesn't make a big deal out of it, even though it was a huge deal back home. He didn't entirely erase that part of himself, he feels it there. And he also feels like maybe she deserves the honesty.
In fact, considering what she told him she is, the whole thing with the garden, with Lucifer, angels, demons, things of such nature. It makes sense, right?
He puts a lot of thought into that, in a few lingering seconds. He makes his decision. And he looks at her again.]
I have one, too. [ Grave only because it's a secret, less about its actual nature. ]
Do you remember that time, at the bank? When those robbers were getting in.
( she straightens up slightly, quietly looking over him before responding )
I do remember. The day that we first met.
( and it had been that first moment that had sparked curiosity within her, a wonder of what he was, the power that she felt from him that was so familiar and yet unknown. it was a curiosity that she'd still had but one that she'd put aside -- people were from different places and their powers felt entirely different from what she was used to. but it seemed that it really did come with a story )
[ And what a story it is. Adam doesn't even know all sides of it, just his own and a vague knowledge of what happened in a general sense. There's a lot he knows in a general sense. A lot of things that just are in his mind now.
He's never explained it. Never tried to. So he finds it particularly difficult to put into words, but he's still going to try. ]
Their guns didn't work because I knew they weren't going to.
[ He keeps facing her now. Serious, but not too solemnly so. Just focused and honest. ]
[ Magic can manifest itself in many ways. It can also be interpreted in many ways. Of course, it's all a matter of perspective, but perhaps it doesn't quite fit to describe Adam's ability. What he does in fact do - now in a much, much smaller magnitude than he could back at home - is mold reality to his will.
It's not as much fun as it sounds. Which is not to say it isn't fun at all.]
Yeah. [ Though he pauses and scrunches his nose slightly, thinking about it.] Sort of. Things happen if I want them to happen.Β
[ It isn't always conscious. But that's where the limits from what he's done in the past, and the limits implied by this place, come right in handy. ]
( curious. lilith had an idea of what he meant even without him being specific about it. magic for herself involved a clear will -- without a strong intent behind your spell little would be accomplished so it made sense that it was his intent that had done it even if it hadn't been any magic.
except whilst that makes her curious there's a part now that makes her concerned, something that he also seems troubled by )
Adam, whatever you did-- ( but this is where she's not so good, a mentor yes but not as skilled at reassuring. soothing ) I'm certain that it will be alright.
[ What can you say when all of a sudden you find yourself able to mold everything to your will and beliefs and find a rising urge to destroy and remake it all? No guidance, no warning, just something that was. Something that was over because he wanted it to be over. Something that didn't happen because there's people in his life that told him what he was doing wrong - even if they didn't know what was going on.
Perhaps he's not so shocked about that side of the world, where magic is real, angels and demons and others live among everyone else. He doesn't know why, but he's not. There's a lot, always there, in background of his mind.
He's come to terms with it. But he also never spoke about. That's strangely harder to do. You wouldn't think so, right? ]
It was fine. Sort of. [ Still casually. ] I fixed it.
I just wanted to make everything better. But the way I was doing it was wrong.
( lilith nods, understanding what he means. so many people wanted to change things but didn't know how and it was a precious thing that lilith would have to balance when she finally frees herself of this place -- how to rule as queen )
The power that you have, that allows you to do this-- Where does it come from?
( lilith was a witch, had claimed her power after her banishment but what was adam? not a witch, no )
Glancing down and furrowing his brow, he thinks. He knows the answer, he's aware. But, once again, not something he's said out loud before. It feels so strange. ]
I was meant to have it. I was meant to destroy the world. At least, that's what they said.
[ 'They'. Angels. Demons. The voices. They all said he was meant to rule, to destroy it all, build it back up. He was meant to bring The End, and The Beginning. He was meant to rule everything.
He didn't want to.
Adam looks up at Lilith again. ]
They said the devil was my dad. Like it was all planned. But dads don't just show up to tell you off. And everyone else just showed up at the same time, saying loads of stuff. It was all so...confusing.
[ Bits of information, as he tries to parse through it in his head. She might not have all the context, but the core of it is simple enough. ]
( lucifer. of course. his power manifested a little differently than sabrina's had but of course she was also a witch. perhaps this is why she'd always thought the two would get on )
You wouldn't be the only one to say that. That your father is the person who you know, not just your biology.
( and that wasn't limited just to sabrina )
So you-- willed the apocalypse not to exist?
( she's a little impressed by that. though anyone that beats down lucifer has her respect )
I'm certain that response wasn't something he'd considered.
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( there's a gentle smile, though perhaps a little more cautious than before.
she doesn't try to distract though, giving him his answer )
It's a longer story than simply whether I'm human.
( he could probably assume she isn't )
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This is probably where Adam's lack of expression doesn't quite come in handy. But, for what it's worth, he doesn't really sound upset or anything.]
Okay. [ Simple enough.]
Why didn't you say so before?
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( she doesn't really want to explain everything with sabrina )
But-- it's an old one. ( she pauses, head dipping slightly ) I was born human, a witch, but over the years-- I became more. A demon.
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A demon? [ He waits for her to go on.]
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( there's a brief pause, a gathering of her thoughts before she adds-- )
The first demon. ( though she knows that in his world things are very different, that demons are fallen angels ) I assume that your-- guardians have told you much about angels and demons? About how the world came to be?
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Not much. [ He could have asked. But he didn't think to.
Information about the world has a funny way of working in his head. ]
Is it different from yours?
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( yes, some of it is different, her demons aren't fallen angels as crowley is but that's not what she's concerned with )
The world was created by the false god, that much is true. Two humans began their life in a garden, a paradise, made to live in eternity together. But this is where mortal history gets the story wrong. They would tell you the tale of Adam and Eve. But there was another before her, a woman that was cast out from the Garden for her beliefs, simple things that she desired. Her name was Lilith.
( she pauses for a moment, giving him time to digest it but not enough time to ask anything )
She wandered the wastelands for centuries until Lucifer found her, saving her where the false god has cast her out. For you see, the reason she'd survived for so long was because she wasn't mortal but a witch. The first witch.
( the tale isn't complete, not without millennia of story telling but she has one other part she needs to tell him )
My name isn't Mary Wardwell, Adam. It's Lilith.
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So he takes in the story. He does realize that the world and the stories about gods and demons and angels and whatever he may have absorbed in the past are true - obviously, being what he is, seeing what he has seen -, but it's still a completely different thing altogether to actively learn about them.
But she makes her point and he blinks, looking genuinely surprised. He lingers on that faintly stunned silence for a couple of seconds, but not too many. ]
So...you're the first witch. And a demon. [ Simply going over what she just told him. ]
You told me you were a witch, when we met. Why didn't you tell me your real name?
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( no one did, aside from angels and the devil, everyone believed that she was mary wardwell but this was a different case indeed )
She's from my world. I'd kept it a secret from her and thus from everyone else.
( though it was an old habit even without that. to most did she really tell them that she was lilith? no )
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If she had been defensive, if she had strongly refuted his questions, then maybe he would have been more suspicious. Maybe he would have felt betrayed, but, no, all he feels is curiosity, and the want to understand.
He believes her intent in her reasons, whatever those might really be, in full. ]
Who? [ Trust, thatβs all. He knows heβs a kid. Most adults will never tell kids the full story.] And why couldnβt she know?
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Being the first witch-- it's the one history that more accurately tells the tale, my life with Lucifer, how witchkind was shaped into the Path of Night.
( but she stops herself from thinking too much on that, not wanting to veer too far from the topic )
I don't often reveal my true self. Not when a name would alter much of an interaction. But now-- now that my truth has been revealed to Sabrina it's-- perhaps less of a concern.
( at least with people she knew for now. and with only sabrina there from their world it impacted little )
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But Adam believes her. ]
I guess that's understandable. [ He comments almost too casually. ] If you were just afraid she'd know.
[ There's something else on his mind. Not the same situation, but his own parallel none the less. ]
...there's tons of people here from a lot of different places. We don't know what they really are, most of them.
[ Like the witches she's told him about. How many people could be hiding their true natures for their own safety? ]
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( there's a curiosity of whether he's simply making a comment based on this or whether he has something more specific in mind )
Whilst many people are honest about what they are others have reasons to keep hidden, perfectly valid ones.
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He considers it and it shows, vaguely, by how something seems to be weighing on his mind, when her secrecy hadn't. ]
Yeah.
[ He's quiet for a couple of seconds, looking off as he thinks.
Then he looks up at her again. ]
Like not knowing what other people will think. Or if it's hard to explain.
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Well-- some secrets need not be shared with others. They are yours, your choice of whether your share them.
( and while she didn't have to admit hers even with him asking she had for a reason -- some form of trust )
If you do share it make sure you know why you are.
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And she came clean. But now, he sits there, wondering about the other side of that. About being honest. About how things hardly matter here, really, when you're entirely out of your element. He's not really ashamed; he doesn't make a big deal out of it, even though it was a huge deal back home. He didn't entirely erase that part of himself, he feels it there. And he also feels like maybe she deserves the honesty.
In fact, considering what she told him she is, the whole thing with the garden, with Lucifer, angels, demons, things of such nature. It makes sense, right?
He puts a lot of thought into that, in a few lingering seconds. He makes his decision. And he looks at her again.]
I have one, too. [ Grave only because it's a secret, less about its actual nature. ]
Do you remember that time, at the bank? When those robbers were getting in.
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I do remember. The day that we first met.
( and it had been that first moment that had sparked curiosity within her, a wonder of what he was, the power that she felt from him that was so familiar and yet unknown. it was a curiosity that she'd still had but one that she'd put aside -- people were from different places and their powers felt entirely different from what she was used to. but it seemed that it really did come with a story )
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He's never explained it. Never tried to. So he finds it particularly difficult to put into words, but he's still going to try. ]
Their guns didn't work because I knew they weren't going to.
[ He keeps facing her now. Serious, but not too solemnly so. Just focused and honest. ]
Because I didn't want them to.
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You ensured that they were unable to -- with your power?
( he cast a spell in some way? or something similar )
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It's not as much fun as it sounds. Which is not to say it isn't fun at all.]
Yeah. [ Though he pauses and scrunches his nose slightly, thinking about it.] Sort of. Things happen if I want them to happen.Β
[ It isn't always conscious. But that's where the limits from what he's done in the past, and the limits implied by this place, come right in handy. ]
It happened back home, too. But... Worse.Β
A lot worse.Β
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except whilst that makes her curious there's a part now that makes her concerned, something that he also seems troubled by )
Adam, whatever you did-- ( but this is where she's not so good, a mentor yes but not as skilled at reassuring. soothing ) I'm certain that it will be alright.
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Perhaps he's not so shocked about that side of the world, where magic is real, angels and demons and others live among everyone else. He doesn't know why, but he's not. There's a lot, always there, in background of his mind.
He's come to terms with it. But he also never spoke about. That's strangely harder to do. You wouldn't think so, right? ]
It was fine. Sort of. [ Still casually. ] I fixed it.
I just wanted to make everything better. But the way I was doing it was wrong.
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The power that you have, that allows you to do this-- Where does it come from?
( lilith was a witch, had claimed her power after her banishment but what was adam? not a witch, no )
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Glancing down and furrowing his brow, he thinks. He knows the answer, he's aware. But, once again, not something he's said out loud before. It feels so strange. ]
I was meant to have it. I was meant to destroy the world. At least, that's what they said.
[ 'They'. Angels. Demons. The voices. They all said he was meant to rule, to destroy it all, build it back up. He was meant to bring The End, and The Beginning. He was meant to rule everything.
He didn't want to.
Adam looks up at Lilith again. ]
They said the devil was my dad. Like it was all planned. But dads don't just show up to tell you off. And everyone else just showed up at the same time, saying loads of stuff. It was all so...confusing.
[ Bits of information, as he tries to parse through it in his head. She might not have all the context, but the core of it is simple enough. ]
So I changed it.
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You wouldn't be the only one to say that. That your father is the person who you know, not just your biology.
( and that wasn't limited just to sabrina )
So you-- willed the apocalypse not to exist?
( she's a little impressed by that. though anyone that beats down lucifer has her respect )
I'm certain that response wasn't something he'd considered.
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