[Lilith's manipulation helps, and slowly, Agnes calms, saying nothing more as her tears stop falling and evaporate against her cheeks. Around them, the setting starts to change, the rehabilitation center chanting into an open park.]
It would be so nice to live a life untouched by destiny.
( her whisper is filled with so much, an undernote as if lilith knows exactly what she's talking about. certainly, it's never been her own destiny but she's been led and manipulated to enact someone else's plans-- a prophecy. but hadn't she come into existence on someone's whim? a destiny of the first woman. she may have rebelled but things hadn't gone well for her after that )
But whilst that may be more difficult to obtain-- there are others here that will help you, that understand.
( she doesn't just mean her but she does understand )
( because whilst agnes could potentially do so accidentally-- lilith didn't believe she would be intentionally cruel to someone she cared about. the woman may have admitted that she'd intended harm on people before but it had been a vastly different situation. then agnes hadn't had people that had cared about her and that changed everything )
That is a mark of who you are. I've known monsters. ( worshipped one of the biggest ones her entire life ) They don't feel guilt or regret over hurting those around them. Or anyone.
( and that was something that it took lilith a long time to realise or rather to accept )
Your words bring me so much comfort. I wish it was easier for me to place them in my heart.
[But it's never that easy, is it? Even if she were only a mortal of the 26 years she appeared to be, it wouldn't be easy. Having lived for much longer than that in such isolation and with such damaging reinforcements complicates things tremendously, even without sharing Lilith's many years.]
Fighting against everything that you've been shown-- everything that you've been told is not a simple task.
( is she speaking from experience? most definitely, though she's doing her best to keep that hidden despite how much she trusts agnes. this isn't about her even if perhaps that shared connection could help )
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It would be so nice to live a life untouched by destiny.
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( her whisper is filled with so much, an undernote as if lilith knows exactly what she's talking about. certainly, it's never been her own destiny but she's been led and manipulated to enact someone else's plans-- a prophecy. but hadn't she come into existence on someone's whim? a destiny of the first woman. she may have rebelled but things hadn't gone well for her after that )
But whilst that may be more difficult to obtain-- there are others here that will help you, that understand.
( she doesn't just mean her but she does understand )
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[Lilith, Martin, Jon...her face twists.]
What if I hurt them? And you?
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( because whilst agnes could potentially do so accidentally-- lilith didn't believe she would be intentionally cruel to someone she cared about. the woman may have admitted that she'd intended harm on people before but it had been a vastly different situation. then agnes hadn't had people that had cared about her and that changed everything )
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[And it's already happened. She's already burned Jon when he tried to help her. Got him punished alongside her.]
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( and that was something that it took lilith a long time to realise or rather to accept )
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[But it's never that easy, is it? Even if she were only a mortal of the 26 years she appeared to be, it wouldn't be easy. Having lived for much longer than that in such isolation and with such damaging reinforcements complicates things tremendously, even without sharing Lilith's many years.]
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( is she speaking from experience? most definitely, though she's doing her best to keep that hidden despite how much she trusts agnes. this isn't about her even if perhaps that shared connection could help )
But it can be done.