( because whilst agnes could potentially do so accidentally-- lilith didn't believe she would be intentionally cruel to someone she cared about. the woman may have admitted that she'd intended harm on people before but it had been a vastly different situation. then agnes hadn't had people that had cared about her and that changed everything )
That is a mark of who you are. I've known monsters. ( worshipped one of the biggest ones her entire life ) They don't feel guilt or regret over hurting those around them. Or anyone.
( and that was something that it took lilith a long time to realise or rather to accept )
Your words bring me so much comfort. I wish it was easier for me to place them in my heart.
[But it's never that easy, is it? Even if she were only a mortal of the 26 years she appeared to be, it wouldn't be easy. Having lived for much longer than that in such isolation and with such damaging reinforcements complicates things tremendously, even without sharing Lilith's many years.]
Fighting against everything that you've been shown-- everything that you've been told is not a simple task.
( is she speaking from experience? most definitely, though she's doing her best to keep that hidden despite how much she trusts agnes. this isn't about her even if perhaps that shared connection could help )
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[Lilith, Martin, Jon...her face twists.]
What if I hurt them? And you?
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( because whilst agnes could potentially do so accidentally-- lilith didn't believe she would be intentionally cruel to someone she cared about. the woman may have admitted that she'd intended harm on people before but it had been a vastly different situation. then agnes hadn't had people that had cared about her and that changed everything )
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[And it's already happened. She's already burned Jon when he tried to help her. Got him punished alongside her.]
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( and that was something that it took lilith a long time to realise or rather to accept )
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[But it's never that easy, is it? Even if she were only a mortal of the 26 years she appeared to be, it wouldn't be easy. Having lived for much longer than that in such isolation and with such damaging reinforcements complicates things tremendously, even without sharing Lilith's many years.]
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( is she speaking from experience? most definitely, though she's doing her best to keep that hidden despite how much she trusts agnes. this isn't about her even if perhaps that shared connection could help )
But it can be done.