[ That's what she assumes this is about: Lilith's shame, a witch caring for a mortal, something Sabrina could never comprehend given her love for Harvey. ]
( how does she get herself into this? there's a slight pause because she doesn't really want to explain it, never wants to let anyone know that she can be vulnerable )
Just be glad for what you've known, Sabrina, and pray you don't need to learn something else.
( she also doesn't know how to put it into words without revealing so much about herself )
( where sabrina had vaguely gotten her to admit that she cared but-- caring hadn't been enough to make him show up. love had )
He gave me something that I'd forgotten. A reminder-- of who I really was.
( and not just what she'd felt in the kickback of her anger and pain at his death. but he'd reminded her of live, shown her the thing she'd wanted all those years ago from adam and the false god, from lucifer. reminded her that lucifer never saw her as more than a handmaiden. and adam-- he'd offered freedom and love, her own life under her control. how could she not have wanted that? )
[ Because she's so much more than the Dark Lord's lackey. She might have been angered by Lilith's admission back then, but the more time she spends with her, the more Sabrina recognizes the powerful First Witch from the stories. ]
I know I'm still behind in the timeline, but I can't understand why you'd ever work for the Dark Lord. It sounds like Adam kind of snapped you out of it.
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To send a message to me.
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He... [ An exasperated sound. ] He was trying to control you, wasn't he? Like when he left his mark on my soul when I kept refusing him.
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( to hurt her, to control her. to ensure she knew that he was the only option in her life. not that it had worked out that way in the end )
But for as much power as he possesses the Dark Lord is also shortsighted.
BABY I'M ALIVE I SWEAR
[ It's deeply relieving to confirm the Dark Lord has flaws they can exploit.
But for now, her focus is Adam and Lilith. ]
Can we bring Adam back?
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No. With what was done--
( except she can't finish that sentence )
There is no magic for that.
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At least we stop him, but... [ The people he's hurt before then... she can't fathom. ] It sounds like you cared for Adam.
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( she doesn't say more, not quite able to admit to another what she'd felt. but maybe her lack of answer and what sabrina saw wioo be enough )
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Lilith...
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Yes, Sabrina, I did.
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[ That's what she assumes this is about: Lilith's shame, a witch caring for a mortal, something Sabrina could never comprehend given her love for Harvey. ]
Adam... Harvey... they're good people.
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( it's a very quick rebuff even though she doesn't have to justify it )
It's more-- complicated than that.
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Just be glad for what you've known, Sabrina, and pray you don't need to learn something else.
( she also doesn't know how to put it into words without revealing so much about herself )
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... I think I've learned a lot anyway. [ Pause. ] Harvey and I...
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( oh how the tables have turned. and she's very glad to not be on the end of the questions anymore )
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[ And his brother. ]
... are Harvey and I still friends?
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( but her friends were extraordinary for mortals )
If you weren't friends would he have been there?
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I'd hope so anyway.
[ BUT... back to Adam. ]
Do you have any regrets? With Adam.
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I don't.
( just a lot of guilt and that's a rare thing for her )
Where is this going, Sabrina?
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[ He meant something, she realizes. It doesn't take two and two to figure it out. ]
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( where sabrina had vaguely gotten her to admit that she cared but-- caring hadn't been enough to make him show up. love had )
He gave me something that I'd forgotten. A reminder-- of who I really was.
( and not just what she'd felt in the kickback of her anger and pain at his death. but he'd reminded her of live, shown her the thing she'd wanted all those years ago from adam and the false god, from lucifer. reminded her that lucifer never saw her as more than a handmaiden. and adam-- he'd offered freedom and love, her own life under her control. how could she not have wanted that? )
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... I'm glad he did.
[ Because she's so much more than the Dark Lord's lackey. She might have been angered by Lilith's admission back then, but the more time she spends with her, the more Sabrina recognizes the powerful First Witch from the stories. ]
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--I'm sorry?
( look, people being nice and concerned over her wellbeing is still very new )
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[ Her voice is quiet, but firm, resolute. ]
I know I'm still behind in the timeline, but I can't understand why you'd ever work for the Dark Lord. It sounds like Adam kind of snapped you out of it.
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He made me a promise. One that for a long time I believed.