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[lightlessflame]

It's about the monthly quota. Due to my relationship with my dominant, I'm on my own in how I fill it.

[Technically she could ask for his help. She just, well, doesn't intend to do so.]

I know there's still time to fill it, so I'm trying to decide the best way to do so. It's been suggested to me that I could simply watch others and be a silent third party, but the idea is unappealing to me.

[People watching is one thing, but something personal like that...she can't even get through a movie without losing interest.]

I posted to the network asking for individuals who would help, but I haven't heard from them since, so I don't know how to go about pursuing anything further.

[sathan]

( oh, this poor girl. lilith had expected that with her power things would be difficult but since her memories she'd been a little wrapped up )

How long do you have left?

( she'll come back to the advice )

[lightlessflame]

[Ha...hm. Now that she's thinking about it...]

I arrived on the 20th of November. Will it be strict to that day?

[She wasn't paying attention during orientation. Like, at all. She's just kind of been re-learning as she goes.]

[sathan]

I never gave them cause to act.

( but agnes is in a very different position )

You could contact those who were interested. A more private conversation may help, as much as we'd prefer more familiarity in it.

( or at least fondness.

a moment passes before a second text appears )

I may also be able to help you.

[lightlessflame]

[Given her history, Agnes isn't so sure that familiarity is much of an option. She frowns slightly, unsure, as she tries to decide how to respond.]

I don't want to put you in an uncomfortable position.

[But it's kind of her to offer--a relief in a way. Lilith's one of the only people she particularly relates to, at least thus far. Everyone else is a bit of a mystery, and that puts her in a place of insecurity. Agnes doesn't like feeling insecure. Or weak, to anyone.]

[sathan]

Helping you wouldn't be.

( it would also be a distraction which was bueno. but she would rather help agnes than see lies touch her )

You don't burn me. Let me help you.

[lightlessflame]

[Agnes hesitates. She's not sure why. She doesn't like feeling bashful, or exposed. But one of those is going to happen regardless of what she wants or how she feels, isn't it?]

You're certain? What if something goes wrong?

[sathan]

I've been through harsher flames than yours.

[lightlessflame]

[She'll take it, worry or not.]

Where do I find you?

[sathan]

( here's her address )

I can be there anytime. We do this at your comfort.

( she's already guessing it's her first real time )

[lightlessflame]

I'll head over now, then, if that's alright.

[For all her hesitation, she knows that otherwise she'll just sit around overthinking the situation. There's no time like the present, and she's always been a woman of deliberate action, when she's had the luxury of taking them of her own will.]

[sathan]

I'm already here.

( she's a lady of leisure and few plans. she had nothing better to do today )

[lightlessflame]

[And good thing too, because now her schedule for the day is absolutely full. After what would be a reasonable amount of time getting from the Down to the Up, Agnes knocks on the door. She nods her head when it opens.]

Thank you for having me on such short notice.

[It's not a doctor's appointment, Agnes.]

[sathan]

Of course.

( lilith offers her a smile, stepping back from the door to let her in )

Can I get you a drink?

( get her relaxed, comfortable. maybe they talk first for boundaries or comfort, maybe agnes jumps in. either way she's letting the other woman set the pace )

[lightlessflame]

That's alright, but thank you.

[She'd feel worse about not drinking her drinks if Lilith went to the trouble. As she steps inside, Agnes looks around, seeming for now to be as passive as ever.]

This is a pleasant home you have. Do you live here alone?

[sathan]

I do.

( particularly now that she's murdered that traitorous familiar of hers.

lilith leads her further in, a slight puff of air making the flames in the fire burn a little brighter as she sits down on the couch )

Blissfully. ( she's also a little calmer than the other day. her heart still hurts but taking out her rage on stolas, having the question answered did help )

I had a question for you, if I may?

[lightlessflame]

Of course. I'll answer anything you'd like.

[She's more or less an open book; and more than that, of course, she's put her trust in the woman. Agnes came here for guidance, and she intends to see it through to the best of her ability. Having given her affirmation, she sits down primly.]

[sathan]

Your power prevents touch with certain exceptions.

( unique individuals but there were few like that )

I would assume then that you've not felt another's-- intimate touch. Have you felt your own?

( or has she abstained entirely? )

[lightlessflame]

[Agnes shakes her head.]

I've never been so inclined.

[She's never been, well, in the mood, one could say. It was a long time before she was in a space where she could feel safe and private enough for such endeavors and, unfortunately, by that time she was far too depressed.]

[sathan]

It's no matter.

( she gestures casually to the seat beside her on the couch, wanting her to settle, perhaps relax some more )

You can discover what it is you enjoy as you-- engage in your endeavours. How you enjoy being touched, where is most effective. Even who.

( whether males or females are more to her taste, though lilith did find that women had a certain particular talent that males lacked )

[lightlessflame]

I see.

[It's not that Agnes means to sound disinterested. She's just never, well, been interested. But that's been more out of necessity than any real preference; when she was much younger, she had fantasies once. Innocent ones that never escalated very far. They were squashed easily enough once she realized how alone she'd always be. It hurt too much to dream.

She gets up to sit instead where Lilith indicates, running her hands down her skirt in a slight indication of anxiety.]

I must seem so foolish, having so little to offer.

[sathan]

I don't offer you this with a request for something in return.

( she could but it wouldn't be sexual in nature what she asked for. and truthfully agnes has already helped her in a way that she couldn't have predicted )

But there won't be anything more than what you're desire.

[lightlessflame]

And when I lack that knowledge?

[She's not sure where to...start. Although she isn't shy, Agnes can't help feeling lost.]

[sathan]

( fair point )

Then perhaps nothing more than what you're comfortable with and that you will know.

( any of it could perhaps feel too much already but it's why lilith promises to be slow and gentle with her, to gently ease her in. even if today is simply a little touching and nothing truly sexual )

If it reassures you there-- are ways that do not require me to touch you.

[lightlessflame]

[Agnes' brow furrows in confusion at the prospect. She can't help but admit, she is a little curious. And if that really is possible, it does reassure her. It's just so hard to reconcile that there are people here who she doesn't have to worry about burning--at least not severely, or easily.]

What do you mean?