( unfortunately so. some didn't mind too much, or at least lilith could brush off the sex even if the manipulations irked her but lyall wasn't more people )
[When she says that, Lyall does not think of the sexual aspect of the changes. They...bother him somewhat but they don't worry him. Something else does. He has thought about that. About what to do if he's made to become different again. There's no indication of his worry about that in his face, though.]
[His gaze drifts off-camera for a moment and then back to her. The weight of the idea is one more stone placed on a pile that sometimes feels like it is placed on his chest. Pinning him down.
Quite suddenly, it is too much. He is finding that this happens...more than he is comfortable with, these days. Something skittering and anxious climbing up his throat, making it difficult to breath. He musters a deep breath nonetheless and forces calm as best he can. Presenting a mask to Lilith as he begins to crumble behind it.]
I should leave you to the rest of your evening. I only wanted to apologize.
[She does catch him at just that moment and because of his surprise and crumbling strength there is a moment where there are cracks in the mask. Enough so the wounded look in his eyes is more than evident.
In truth, in has very little to do with all of this. But that nature...it is a glimpse of what he could become and what he would loathe to be.
He swallows visibly, audibly, and then nods faintly.]
You may be right. [It's a very soft admission.] Thank you, Ms Lilith. Good evening.
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( and she doesn't solely mean him. there had been others that were less than gentle, another wolf also )
It's little different to things this city has done previously.
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[He hasn't been in Duplicity long. There have been the dreams and then there was the war. Mental compulsions are new.]
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( unfortunately so. some didn't mind too much, or at least lilith could brush off the sex even if the manipulations irked her but lyall wasn't more people )
Unless you lock yourself away.
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If it becomes necessary, I may.
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Then hopefully you're able to act in time.
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[His gaze drifts off-camera for a moment and then back to her. The weight of the idea is one more stone placed on a pile that sometimes feels like it is placed on his chest. Pinning him down.
Quite suddenly, it is too much. He is finding that this happens...more than he is comfortable with, these days. Something skittering and anxious climbing up his throat, making it difficult to breath. He musters a deep breath nonetheless and forces calm as best he can. Presenting a mask to Lilith as he begins to crumble behind it.]
I should leave you to the rest of your evening. I only wanted to apologize.
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( she aims to catch him just before he closes the feed, though she hasn't entirely thought out what she plans to say first )
Whilst the city may affect us, bring out natures that we may not enjoy-- not all will think so unfavourably about it. About you.
( this time it isn't about the sex, the fact that she'd enjoyed that but rather it hadn't changed how she'd regard him. well, not negatively anyway )
Perhaps you underestimate them.
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In truth, in has very little to do with all of this. But that nature...it is a glimpse of what he could become and what he would loathe to be.
He swallows visibly, audibly, and then nods faintly.]
You may be right. [It's a very soft admission.] Thank you, Ms Lilith. Good evening.
[With that, he does close the feed.]